Thursday, July 18, 2013

Back in London..........

Here I am back in London..... dwelling for weeks...staring at my drawing pads, remembering Paris..............
I could never be more grateful for the liberating experience that I had with the drawing group of my soul, my life will never be the same....
But here I am now, so numb and sad, and busy, and tired....overwhelmed with feelings and fear and love....

I miss you all so much it hurts........

Have not touched a pencil in weeks and I  feel sad and lonely.

To stare?
When you have it in your hand
And you know it can melt in a second
Do you stop and stare?
 Is it enough to know it’s there?
Or should you look and walk away
Letting your numb glaze stray?
Covered in light, but still you can’t see
The poison behind the possibility 
Eyes wide open and dusty skin
The most difficult fight is the one within
Daggers of feelings, chaos of color
Useless thoughts that don’t worth a dollar
You walk and you walk
But never talk
And once again you  feel  it
Its there...
Is it time to move on,  or stare in despair.....?!!??!!